me and my dad brought puppy to the airport this morning.


and now i'm the saddest lady you'll ever meet.

since the first night we spent together (september 8th, cupcake party) i don't think we have spent more than two consecutive nights apart. i don't know if we've even spent two apart. we haven't even spent many single nights apart. i came to my parents house a couple times, but then just started coming for visits instead, and patrick and i slept here together twice. in total, i doubt we've spent a week in different beds in over three months.
i don't even know how to sleep alone.

i'm home for a bit before work. i'm there until 9. at least i'll have something to keep me busy today. i'll probably have to go to spencer street to get some clothes and feed sardonicus, and get my presents for my family.

wouldn't it be nice if we were older
then we wouldn't have to wait so long
and wouldn't it be nice to live together
in the kind of world where we belong

you know its gonna make it that much better
when we can say goodnight and stay together

wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
in the morning when the day is new
and after having spent the day together
hold each other close the whole night through

happy times together weve been spending
i wish that every kiss was neverending
wouldn't it be nice

hi,
i haven't posted her in about twelve thousand years.

i work at a pita place called mega wraps where i get to eat all the free falafel my guts can handle. i'm in school, although i haven't been going as often as i should. i'm taking a required women's studies research course as well as writers from 1800, intro french II, a course on the apocalypse and intro to chinese philosophy.

the biggest news right now is probably that i'm kind of crazy about this boy in my life...


that's us.

he treats me so well, i seriously don't know how to deal with it.

that's all for now. i haven't been updating my real blog very often (www.aeonity.com/bee), but have been keeping tabs with bluekaffee if you're shitting yourself wanting to know about my life.
who uses livejournal anymore anyways? what is this, 2002?

i just got another weird email, this one is from "mahmud ryckman" moiler@kabel.cc, subject: lassitude

Heyello,

        
 Present unnforgettable night to your belooved one,
 imaggine yoursellf as a Macho!

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this is some fucked up email i got on riseup.net, which i never get spam on.
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Heyello,


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pip died this morning.

yesterday was awesome.
aryn called and picked me up and we met our mothers and our aunt at east side marios. i got sick on pizza and fries and then we got bridesmaids dresses for our cousin melissa's wedding in august.

i am so exhausted...

"sometimes i want to take to the streets with a baseball bat.

i will not behave myself, never ever ever"

i wrote that (and livejournal saves drafts apparently) right before a computer in the library logged me out.

it's funny because i want to take to the streets with a baseball bat more now than ever.
is this real? seriously?
i think we're calling for a shitstorm may 17th.

hey dudes,
a. confrontation is not that big of a deal.
b. resentment is lame.
i pick a.
you should too.

all the best,
bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

i'm not sure if i wanna throw up or die more right now.
nothing stays good for more than two seconds.

i miss everyone i've ever loved and i need to get out of this city.
michelle asked me to curate the rooms film screening for april 24th. i'll make a whole load of money doing it.
i think i'm going to plan a trip asap.

maybe i'll never come back. sometimes i really don't know why i would...

i graduated.

( it was alright. )

i just finished making pink, red, and white fudge for my valentine.

( swoon )

esther gave me g. i forgot to check back until now.

1. green peas
2. grocery shopping
3. garbage
4. ghost mice
5. garbanzo beans
6. gravy train
7. ghost stories
8. grapes
9. godspeed you! black emperor
10. gross behavior
11. grass stains
12. ghost world

give up cassette tapes? never!

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...
7. send back to the person who sent it to you.

Opening Credits: crass- asylum

Waking Up: jerry's kids- cracks in the wall

First Day At School: jkw- lang quang fung

Falling In Love: hella- republic of rough and ready

Fight Song: amebix- nobody's driving

Breaking Up: final fantasy- the arctic circle

Prom: bikini kill- in accordance to natural law

Life: career suicide- impact

Mental Breakdown: architecture in helsinki- fumble

Driving: witch hunt- twenty-five

Flashback: jesu- silver

Getting back together: velvet cacoon- fauna and flora

Wedding: bread and water- death sentence

Birth of Child: skitsystem- den morka floden i varat hjarta

Final Battle: mount eerie- the boom

Funeral Song: gravy train!!!- hump lites (wicked!)

End Credits: le tigre- friendship station

today for the first time since i became interested in music and playing the guitar i actually picked it up and learned power chords.

i learned how to play beat on the brat by the ramones.
i put on my ramones tape and i can almost play at the correct tempo.

today in school i realized that i am really not very good at chemistry but we learned something new in math and i tried it and got it all right. i think that my teacher was proud of me. i know that i sure was.

i have been watching amadeus in experiencing music class. it is really a very good movie. it is nice to notice little things like the fact that in one scene where it showed a clarinet briefly they used a wooden one. i'm glad that they didn't show one of the black, plastic yamaha ones. that would just be silly.

tomorrow i work my regular 5-10 shift at the big r. i will probably be working with tracey. jenny is my favorite other girl to work with. she doesn't take any crap from customers. after that i might go stay at blatch if caleb is still there. or maybe just try to go hang out with him for a bit. he is probably going to leave soon and i'd like to see him before he goes.

i am on my period and this time i almost got worried for a bit because i could feel that this time was different. i saw some pad wrappers in the garbage at the h house so maybe spending time with jen, curtain, and or karen has synchronized my period with theirs. either way it's thick, clotted and pretty much black. rather than just being generally more tired and sore than i normally am i am getting sharp quick cramps that sometimes catch me off guard. i almost cried at work yesterday because one cramp was so strong and i didn't feel it coming. i nearly fell down. what does this mean? i know ways to combat the cramps: water, tea, healthy food, exercise, generally treating myself right but what does the consistency and color of the blood mean? i know that you can tell if you're ovulating or not by the consistency and tackiness of your regular juices but is there something wrong if i'm getting clots the size of my thumbnail?

maybe the cold weather is setting in.

maybe that is changing our moods. maybe we're getting angry or nervous or needy or lonely.

maybe we're all confused, and need to get away.

oh, odds and bodkins.